Remember how I said that this year is the summer of yes? So far it’s working out pretty good. I’ve still been kind of overworked and having to resort a little bit to the “one minute, babe” during the day with Ayva, but I’m definitely making an effort to do better. After tomorrow afternoon, my schedule is free during the day all the way through the long weekend to spend quality time with Terrence and Ayva. We’re going to the Alameda County Fair one of those days. We went to the beach today on an impromptu visit, but we have plans to go back with blankets and toys later this week as well. There’s the 4th of July parade, a cookout, and a hike in Berkeley. Family time. I live for this.
I’ve noticed that anytime I’m called to fall back on work or obligations other than focusing on my family, something happens that tries to suck me back in. Sometimes it’s a work drama, other times it’s an “urgent” crisis that can’t wait. Right now it seems like it’s just, I don’t know, passive aggressive energy invading my chi. It happens whenever I choose peace and happiness. Often, that negative energy will move me away from my target goal of quality family time. Worse case scenario, I just…stop. I break down and have to spend time rebuilding.
This time, though, I’m saying no.
I am not dealing with other people’s insecurities.
I am not worrying about folks and their expectations of me.
I am not spending time worrying, stressing, second-guessing or overthinking.
It’s not happening. Not this summer.
This is the Summer Of Yes.